Usch vad svårt det är att få igång energin igen. Jag vågar inte bli lilla “Super Maina” för jag orkar inte se allt falla i spillror igen bara för att jag själv faller in i en av mina gropar, men samtidigt är det jobbigt att ha noll energi/vilja att faktiskt ta tag i mitt liv [...]
Posts Tagged ‘depression’
26 Nov
Addicted to Luck
For all my talk about being lucky I’m starting to realize that I kind of need myself to by lucky because I don’t handle disappointments very well. I’m getting better at not letting myself sink and sulk, but damn it’s a struggle! I would really like to just let myself be a little down, just [...]
13 Nov
I’ve Gone From…
…So little to do that I was starting to feel useless, to the limit of having too much to do. Screw my therapist. I can’t deal with having less to do. I don’t like who I turn into and the circles of thoughts that take over my brain. But, I know, it’s all about finding [...]
25 Oct
Ramblings of a Hungry (and Tired) Mind
I’m tired of writing about my mood swings, but even my shrink thinks this blog is a good idea for me to keep track of myself.
Anyway, I’ve had an awesome weekend. My cold did end up getting worse but my partner in crime (the girl I hosted the party with) wouldn’t let me [...]
13 Oct
Yay
When things are good, they’re really very good.
I took it so very easy this weekend that I had no episodes of just staring at the wall feeling completely exhausted so maybe-just-maybe I’m learning to live a little more balanced. I’m learning to put some things aside and take care of them later (instead of packing [...]
28 Sep
Trusting the Happiness
I’m starting to realize that I may actually have more friends than I initially realized. I remember a friend once saying that it took him three years to make friends here and that maybe those three years were a necessary part of the process. Maybe there’s some truth in that. Maybe I needed to grow [...]
19 Sep
Shake That
I think I might have figured out a way to get rid of my shakes.
It’s hard to explain, but a good way of knowing that everything’s not right with me is by the way my hand shakes because ( I think) my body’s so tense. This time though, it hasn’t stopped despite (or because of) the fact [...]
16 Sep
“Life” struggles
It’s a wonder how many things in life one actually struggles with. So much about life is about being structured and well disciplined.
For example:
I know that waking up at 6 am is the best way to make sure that I’ll have a good day, but it’s not like that’s something the mind and body does [...]
