I Survived to Live Yet Another Year! May 24, 2008

So, this wonderfully sunny and warm day I am no longer as we swedes call it, an “ungdom”, no more special prices because I’m no longer a youth. From now on I’m considered a grown up. (!!) Funny how one day can have that effect!

Yes, today’s my birthday. I’m spent the last few days cleaning, fixing indian snacks I’ve never done in my life (bugging my mom to death with my cooking questions in all times of the day) and basically looking forward to meeting up with friends to celebrate that I’m getting older (shocker!). Heh. Well, it’s all wrapping up today and hopefully there’s a lot people coming by to celebrate with the little princess (me)! Should be fun to see how people are dressing up for the colourful/indian theme I’ve got going on for tonight!

Happy Birthday to me! … and kisses to all!

Little Joys and Huge Disappointments April 26, 2008

…and tomorrow my dear mother returns as well. *yay*

Really looking forward to meeting the two of them next week!

On a more boring note I got my last exam back and I failed it. I guess there’s always a first. The worst part though, is that I have no idea how I should have answered it to get a passing grade. Quite frustrating.

I’ve also gained so much weight lately that I’ve surpassed the maximum weight I’ve told myself that I should never reach, as well as started smoking again.

All my motivation lately: gone.

I really have to change these nasty new (old) habits I’ve picked up (again). I’ve had enough. Just don’t anyone lecture me or give me a morality speech please!! They don’t help *grumble*

On a happy note, I got my first double pay check! Money!!!! It’s nice to have a little to play with again! *muahaha*

Finally, the spex is over! …I was hoping to put up a few pictures for everyone to enjoy but it seems the spexpage is down again so i can’t upload any pictures.

Until next time…
Sweet kisses to all!

Headstrong! March 11, 2008

Funny what some good head butting can do sometimes. A girl that I’m working with in school is, to both our exasperation, just as stubborn as I am. So after some very unnecessary screaming from my side we seem to have found some kind hesitant conclusion. It’s almost like with guys you know? Give each other a punch to let the steam out and then alls cool. *wink*

Anyway, I’m a happy girl otherwise cuz I like my new job and I’ve just found out that they really like having me there. *yay* I’ve just worked for 4 days (thursday-sunday) two days each at each job, which has been exhausting but I since I really like both jobs so I’m happy to be doing it! …And the money I’ll be getting in the end is a nice “bi”-effect. hehe.

And my darling E, you don’t need to worry that I’ll be training myself into nothingness since I’ve managed to damage my knee, and thus not be able to train until atleast the end of the week.

Now I’m just waiting for the end of the month so I can follow in E’s footsteps and buy a new phone! …and som other stuff I know I can’t actually afford as a student. It’s pretty bad when one’s just looking forward to the end of the month so I can spend some more money! hehe. *spoiled*

Super sweet hyperactive kisses to all!

The Ecstacy of White Powder January 8, 2008

So another christmas gone by. It’s interesting how differently various families celebrate them (or don’t celebrate it in my case). The bears family in any case enjoy the presents on the 24th with their parents and then the christmas foods on the 25th with the grandparents. Can’t complain! 

After the family-time, we spent the evening of 25th with friends. Quite the interesting evening, with many people going out… and I’m glad I didn’t attempt getting into a bar that night! These are, after all the reason for why me and the majority of other swedes celebrate christmas. For the company, for the family, for the love… and not for religion.

Ah, and new years eve/day… haven’t had a hang over like that since last new year! heh. But it was a wonderful two days. party with friends on the 31st and a nice calming brunch with friends as well as homemade pizza for dinner on the 1st.

They say that the way one spends the first day of the new year is a clue into how the rest of the year will be. If this is true, then friends, food, a relaxed nature as well as activities to keep me going gives clues to a wonderful new and upcoming year!

And as if to welcome the new year, even the town looks a little different! of this winter fell on the 1st January. And although it’s still a little too warm for it to stick toThe first snowflakes the ground I was overjoyed to see the picture to the right when I looked out the window a few days ago! Ofcourse, this only lasted teh evening but little me was still a happy little girl.

None the less, happy new year and I hope everyone gets a wonderful year.

Sweet kisses to all!

Mac and Back December 1, 2007

Hello all you happy people.

Maina’s going Mac… again. Decided I was worth an Ipod so, sometime next week I’ll have one of those expensive white little things that I’ve been so jealous att everyone else for having. *yay* 80G… so much space. Too much actually, I don’t even know what I’ll do with all of it, but I have a feeling that that’s a luxury problem I’ll easily surpass soon enough. (hehe)

Ones you go mac, you never go back I guess. I’m just waiting for the day when games can be played on mac computers without having to install the window apps. Until then, our little household has two laptops (mac) and two desktops (one mac, one windows). Quite the tech world we live in now a days.

So, now that I’ve fixed a little christmas present to myself, I should probably make sure to get presents to the rest. (You know, those less important than I) hihi.

Got any tips of fun little presents under 200kr? I need tips for girls and boys in their early 20’s and tips for men and women in their 50’s. Help please!

Alrighty boys, girls and father. Santa Claus has to go to bed, to make some money tomorrow so she can atleast make an attempt to fill your socks with snacks and presents!

Sweet kisses to all!

Maina the Whina August 3, 2007

Alright, sorry for this guys, but I need to expunge the feeling of complete uselessness that I have right now.

I have no idea how get everything to work together these next two months. And especially not well.

The whole thought of being the one responsible for other people to have fun is extremely daunting. I can’t even have a party at home without it being a failure… let alone 80 people… for two months!! And get them to feel like I am someone they want to get to know and have as a friend.

Where is all this coming from you ask? I had a meeting today with a few other people representing different parts of te school and the city for exactly this purpose… to make sure that all the activities for the new students will go smoothly. The more I listen, the more worried I am. The Teks have so much going on, and so much fun stuff that I wish I could be a new student in their group! The Servs has a girl in the “top” who knows exactly how to get things done, when to get it done, who to talk to, and get everyone around her engaged. Things happen with her.
…And then there’s the meeting itself… I end up feeling more and more like a grumpy, uninteresting child. People tell me that I’m “shiny, happy person” but it doesn’t fit with who I really believe I am or who really feel like I am lately. atleast not all the same girl that I was when I moved down here. And especially not compared to eveyone I’m working with regarding this whole Fadder activity.

Then there’s stuff that even the very biggest big mouthed part of me has set a line for what I wont bring up in this blogg. Either way, I’m noticed that I am not at all who I want to be right now. Not pretty enough, not sexy enough, not fun enough, not happy enough.

Now, having said that I’m going to bury this subject, leave it alone and never mention it again… heh, well atleast as much as Maina-possible.

Eternal Sunshine of the Bewildered Mind June 20, 2007

The sun is shining and I’m in a good mood again. Mostly because I finally got my ass out the apartment(!).

I lost the job I had gotten, (and this without even working so I think that was pretty well done) because of external reasons that I had no power over. So, if there’s anyone out there who feels like they have job they can offer me I’m all for it, but until then, it’s welfare money for me, yay! (not).

Everything else is ok though, now that I’m in a better mood and shaken the bad mood off the top of my head.

My final school completion that I still had hanging over my shoulder is now finally done! Now THAT I can give myself a real “yay!” for. hehe.

And the sun is back. But I already said that no?

I tell you though; it takes quite the talent to be me I think! I can loose my keys, twice, in a week. I can misplace something 10 seconds after I get it in my hands if I don’t make it a conscious thought to put it in my mind immediately after it landing in the Bermuda triangle shaped as my hands, or it’s lost… until my dear bear finds it 10 seconds after that. I get to hear that I’m a little drama queen because I panic when I don’t find my wallet immediately, but I tell you this is because I know what I am like! The list of examples can go into eternity but what I’m wondering now is this: If my father who had such an immaculate mind started to get a little lost at 60, what the hell am I going to be like?!! Although I have to say to my fathers defence… he doesn’t have any Alzheimer’s warning signs going off, now a days he’s just got the same memory level of his dear little daughter. But then again, that isn’t much to come for his defence… (note: do not become a lawyer).

Oki, I’m off to Maina-land where I’m sure there are nice little butterflies and colourful talking little monkeys (I mean there has to be the reason why I am the way I am no?

Sweet kisses to all!

…and with a hop and a leap she’s in the lime light, part-taking in the play of life… May 8, 2007

Alright, I’ll start mine just like everyone else at this point… I guess I’ve finally just fallen for the pressure (as if one has to defend the fact that one’s starting a blogg)… and i’m no different

To be quite honest I don’t know why I’ve been so hesitant to start a blogg.

Ok, that was a lie. I do. I’m worried what people will think if they really knew what was going on in my brain. “Maina the Whina” will truly be born and grow into it’s fullness. And as for myself, I’m afraid of what I’ll find out about myself if I’m truly honest to everyone else who bothers to read this! Hah. I guess the fact that I believe that my words have so much power is a little give away to the control-freak I am. A friend ones told me people would probably go crazy if they got a sneak peak into my brain. Lol. But I shant talk of myself as if I’m so different from everyone else. Most people’s problem is, afterall, that they think that they are alone and different, when truly they are not. Some people are just better at hiding it than others.

None the less, I thought to take this as a challenge into training my mind into NOT over thinking things that bother me by writing about OTHER things than that which I THINK is bothering me. So, a little twist to why people usually have a blogg for!

Let the challenge begin.