I’ve updated my photos! Go see! 
Easter Week April 12, 2009
It’s been a very strange week for me… I’ve ad almost nothing but free time on my hands. Free time from (both) work that is. But there’s been enough to do none the less, as usual, even if I at first was worried about what I’d do with all that extra time.
Monday was spent enjoying the oncoming spring weather with the dear Bear and starving myself for the observation I was to have on Tuesday.
Tuesday I got drugged (very nice!) and observed at the hospital. There they came to the conclusion that I have for two years been misdiagnosed and written out a massive amount of medications for me to take (not so nice). The most annoying about these medicines being that they’re extremely hard to get a hold of. After a few days I finally found a medical store that stocked one of them. The second one though, is finished everywhere, even at the factory that makes them. Very annoying to finally be able to get help for my problem… and yet not.
Wednesday was spent at work doing what felt like not much at all. By noon I was done and on the way I met a very nice Ugandan girl experiencing her first winter (poor thing) who invited me to come visit her if I were ever to go traveling around Africa which I do hope to do one day. Always good to make connections like these!
- Ales Stenar
Thursday the Bear and me went for a Bed & Breakfast in (according to me) the middle of nowhere. I even got the grand tour of the place where the Bear spent the first few years of his life. Very nice.
On Friday we woke up at 6 a.m. to see something called “Ales Stenar” at dawn. Very beautiful. On the ride home we passed an art gallery and got lunch at the “family-in-laws” to celebrate Easter.
Yesterday we had a wonderfully pleasant evening at one of the Bears friends and his cat who’re quite the natural hosts. Food, wine, games and a movie. It just doesn’t get much better.
Today I went for a very long walk. In true Forrest Gump form, when I walked as far as I usually do, I just kept walking and then kept walking until I just decided that it was time to go home. Tonight, we’re apparently getting Easter food at a friends place for what I think will turn into another dinner, games and movie evening (no wine this time though).
All in all, I’d say I’ve had a very pleasant week, and we even have one more day off from work for some Easter purpose. (Never learnt these traditions)
…To bad the apprentice work starts as usual after that. 
Really not looking forward to that.
Kisses to all.
Photo update! January 4, 2009
Alrighty! All the photos I promised to update with are now updated! Check out those posts to see them.
Sweet kisses to all!
The First Snow of the Winter! November 21, 2008
I’ve come to the conclusion that that my cats don’t like it when it too quiet. So I’ve put on some Gabriella Cilmi to quiet them down a little. 
I’ve also decided I love doodling, cutting and pasting, designing and believe it or not I do have some good ideas sometimes (about food, themes, interior decorating, and all the rest of such homely things a good housewife enjoys and I despise. Out of simple disinterest the ideas usually escape my mind as quickly as they appeared (if it isn’t something I can take care of immediately of course) and just like that, that little moment of genius is lost to me forever and ever (and ever). I’ve also for a very long time wanted to try my hands on scrapbooking but photos just aren’t my thing, not now that the digital world has taken over. Thus… *drumroll*… I’m gonna start “ideabooking”! A hobby that may actually be of help during those (very unusual) moments where I have a need for home-fixing and have the economy for it… Or just cheap ideas for when I’m in the mood.
So a hobby for the future hobbying? That’s my kind of hobby! Never really liked doing something for no purpose at all. Like drawing… a lot of work for something that’s just going to gather dust in the bottom of my bookshelf somewhere to prove to myself that I have no patience or talent with the stuff.
Ofcourse, right now I have an economy of the sum total of -2000kr so hopefully I’ll be able to hold on to this little moment of genius for long enough for me to be able to gather the rest 2 them until tuesday (when I get my tiny but highly appreciated governmentally provided study income).
Sweet kisses to all!
The Ramblings of a Crazy Person November 2, 2008
A chaotic space shows of a chaotic mind right?
The apartment has looked like a tornado hit it this past week. I haven’t been feeling very well lately so I sat myself down and got myself hooked to a game called “mass effect”. And I’ll be honest; it’s had a massive effect on the state of our apartment! Yesterday, I finally finished off the game I’ve spent 37 hours(!) playing (In one week btw… how’s that for maladaptive behaviour). I’ve spent the day cleaning, washing clothes, doing the dishes, and then going off to school to study for a few hours. And it doesn’t stop there! After having been such a good little girl I went to the store, got myself some dark chocolate (yum), some stuff I needed for breakfast tomorrow and some stuff to make a pleasant dinner tonight, which is what I’m waiting to get done as I write (my dear bear is the one usually responsible for the lovely cooking).
I even had a pleasant little “walk” on my way to school as I was on a mission to find a place to take out money! I ended up at 7-Eleven with a cup of latte in my hands in exchange of the possibility of taking out money, and then walking back to my favourite kebab place to get a kebab role. When one has a boyfriend that doesn’t like kebab (I love him despite this, aren’t I being big hearted ), ones picky about where to get that wonderful piece of pleasure! Ok, granted, that little walk took a total of 15 minutes, but for a girl who likes to bike, this is pretty much a perfect length for a walk. Heh.
I also realized that I love my new hat I bought a couple of days ago. Makes me feel safe from the world! Sounds admittedly strange. But not being able to see everybody around me (being quite short I usually have to look up to look at peoples faces) made it much easier to not worry about what the proper people-behaviour is. Total ostrich behaviour! I can be myself and be in my own world. Haven’t had those heavenly feelings in a very long time. Quirky little hat, I love you!
Anyway, that’s enough rambling for me today. Y’all take care o’ yerselves, ye hear?
Kisses to all.
… October 13, 2008
So, for five days I’ve written why my days are going to be good. And today, I’ve had probably one of the nicest days out of them all… and for some reason I feel a little down. Wonder what the explanation of that would be? Is it because I had such a nice day where I’ve been busy with something the whole day that the sudden lack of activity once I came home a few hours ago became… a downer. What am I supposed to do then I wonder?
Ah sweet untouchable balance. How I miss thee.
Kisses to all.
Finally, a photo of the day:
If red is the color of passion, then truly must Autumn be the season of passion
The Forgetful Bore September 19, 2008
I forgot to mention that I’ve updated the photo gallery! A few photos I took last weekend while in Sävsjö, celebrating a friends (2 month early) birthday. I had a good time, even if I have a sneaking suspicion that our hostess (who I have to say should hire out her party-organising skills) thought that I/we (me and the 2-3 people I spent the evening talking with) were boring, unsociable and maybe even not having a good time (which should be noted I actually did have).
I just didn’t have quite the energy everyone else who was drinking semed to have when I myself wasn’t enjoying the alkohol as much as being able to sit and enjoy a conversation.
I truly do miss those. My craving for interesting subjects and conversations (with others other than the Bear, who has no choice but to deal with my ramblings) has just not been satisfied lately. I have a sneaking suspicion that the reason for that has more to do with me, and not the people I’ve gotten to know since arriving here (who I claim, at the risk of sounding pompous: are young, inexperienced, and untravelled… and whom I have a feeling (and I wouldn’t blame them for) find me to be a loud-mouthed besserwisser, who in the long run is found to be quite a bore).
Anyway, I noticed last weekend, after half a glass of wine, that I for some reason or other didn’t enjoy drinking quite as much as I usually do. (Oh, and I have to give myself a pat on the head for managing yet another weekend without smoking! Most probably a result of my not drinking. ) Strange no?
None the less, hats of to the hostess for making a party that I know everyone (even if some of us may have seemed like bores) enjoyed and check out the photo gallery!
Sweet kisses to all!
- The “snowflakes” are dust, so please excuse the bad quality!
To Sound Like an Alcoholic…. September 7, 2008
Last night me and the Bear were invited to two parties and neither of us were in the mood to drink, thus we went to the first one for a couple of hours and drank alcoholfree cider. I’m pretty talkative in my sober, everyday state of mind so it wasn’t really a problem but I found it was hard to find things to talk about or discussions for me to be part of. I’m finding that I have less and less stuff that I like to share with people face-to-face. Or rather, that I’m so self-involved that I can’t imagine it being interesting. I miss talking to people with the same background as I have. My boarding school friends whom I miss enormously… quite simply, other people who don’t mind talking about themselves! I know it’s not the swedish way to share more than neccessary. Maybe that’s why alkohol is so popular here. I should add though, so there’s wont be any missunderstandings, that it was a very pleasant and calm get together that I think I would have utterly enjoyed if I had been more relaxed.
After a couple of hours there we moved on to party #2 where the partying had gone overboard. There we dropped of the present to a very happy hostess and then bicycled homewards.
As a whole, I enjoyed being sober, but I didn’t enjoy feeling like the bore. Although, not having the possibilty of running out to the balcony to have a cigarette every now and then to give me the chance totalk new people (even if it would just be an “excuse me, could I get through”) and give my restless soul some movement and a break between discussions, was, I think the hardest part.
It’s a new world for me to learn to handle! New habits to internalise after having relied on alcohol and cigarettes for so long. (note: I don’t want to become a soberist, I just want to teach my mind not to over think situations just because I don’t have alcohol in my system.)
The fact that I felt the way I did, proved to me that I needed to get used to not having alcohol in my system at these kinds of events, more than I thought. My only worry is that I’ll stop being invited in the process of getting comfortable in my own sober skin.
Sweet kisses to all!
Photo of the day:
The Wise, the Ignorant and the Long-Winded September 6, 2008
So it’s saturday again.
I remember a time when I felt that time passed conspicuously slow and how hard it was to accept my fathers theory of time + age = accelaration. In the mind of a 13 year old it just didn’t make much sense how time could elapse any different depending on what age one was.
Now, years later, I understand the notion of time beng elusive. What I wonder now is exactly how fast does time pass for a man nearing his 70’s when I (at 26) already feels there aren’t enough hours to the day?! Hopefully at his age I’ve learnt the art of multi-tasking.
A man nearing his 70’s…
It’s every childs fear isn’t it? The thought of their parents mortality. My father’s much too young at heart and mind to be of that age! I truly can’t picture a world without any of them (or just one of them)… and until I name their age as such, I don’t. Ignorance is bliss.
Back to the point though, I’ve estimated that on weekdays I’ve about an hour to do with as I please. With hobbies like laying puzzles that doesn’t give me very much time for enjoyment. Especially when I have to clean up after myself to make sure the cats don’t get to them. And this without a job or extra curriculars, as I thought I’d stay away from it this year (which btw, is going to be my economical downfall).
I agree with the Bear that as a student one never gets the free time one gets with a steady job. Once the lectures are over, we have to deal with the group works, the reading up, the studying for the next exam. (Then again, being the workaholic I am, I’ll probably find a way to make sure work takes over more aspects of my life tin the future as well.) I guess I just have to learn to find the time, just like one does with the training.
As you can probably tell, I’ve never learnt the art of cramming every activity between heaven an hell into the 24 hours we have each day like some people have the ability of doing. They’re either heavy-dosage drug users or they’re such social butterflies that they enjoy the thought of doing things, constantly, with others. For me, I need to be doing things, constantly, but only about 25% of it with others. None the less, I’ve always been jealous of these talented little artísts of life, but I guess it’s a part of who one is, what one’s comfortable with. In the end, I really enjoy the feeling of me-time. It’s the time of day I get to “varva ner” as they say in swedish, and not loose myself in the kaos of being liked by other, of being fun, enjoyable and spunky. (But then again, during about two months of the year I need people so I don’t loose myself in the kaos of not liking myself, of paranoia, angst, and depression. So I’m not completely autonomous.
Sweet kisses to all and I leave you this rainy Saturday with this photo to put a smile on your faces.
