Apparantly… November 3, 2009

…I have way too much on my plate that I’m dealing with… which I knew to be true even before my therapist pointed it out to me. She listed it all upp for me and after a little discussion I’m starting to realize why I kept feeling like I kept bashing my head to the wall. Most of the things on my plate are about pure “will”. The only thing that isn’t completely realiant on my will power is work, which would explain why that one usually makes me feel better at the end. It’s also sort of true with my driving lessons because if I don’t cancel it in time and decide not to go, my dad pays 500kr for nothing. Those are my two responsibilities where others rely on my and thus, not completely reliant on my willpower.

Thus, I’ve been told to make a kind of priority list from what matters the most to until my brain says “stop! that’s enough!”

My little family
Politics
Part-time job
Household chores
Friends
Training
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School and Aruma
Driving lessons
Marknadsföreningen
Hungerprojektet
Hobbies

The line is where my limit is (I think)… But see, that line is nowhere near realistic. For one reason only. The school. Without the economical support I get to go to school, there’s no chance I’d be able to manage to survive on just a part-time job, Of course, I could get a full time job because the day shifts are where the least stuff happens but then I’d be on the verge of having too much to do again.There’s no way I can take care of household chores, being in a relationship, a full time job and as a fourth: politics for example, or friends, or training. The job takes 9 hours of my day, the chores take atleast two. The fourth choices take about 3 hours and so does a relationship. Granted, I wont be spending 3 hours on the fourth AND 3 hours on relationship everyday, but where relationship wouldn’t be getting the hours, the fourth choice would, and vice versa. So where’s my free time? And what’s a sensible way of dividing relationship and personal life choices?

It’s all hard questions for me. At least I think I’ve pretty much decided on the form of the list… now I just need to figure out how to balance personal life choices and having a relationship. (Because neither are up for debate in being taken of the list!)

Kisses to all.

*Burst* September 7, 2009

Alright I’m in those got-to-get-it-out-of-my-system-before-I-burst kind of moods again.

Went to my first Folkpartiet meeting today… it’s quite a change after having been part of the moderat meetings I have to say, but it’s too early to say what I think. Two things though. I felt like it was mostly frusterated people who just wanted to complain (but that could’ve just been todays subject, what do I know) and after the meeting it truly felt like I was put against the wall regarding my pointof views and why I joined Folkpartiet. I’m a nervous wreck now because I’m wondering what exactly I said (I actually got blackouts from my nervousness today!). It’s ok though, atleast they were interested in their new member which is a good thing. And it’s good practice for my not to quick-witted mind to get put against the wall like that.

A positiv aspect is that there also seemed to be people that really wanted to discuss and debate the politics which I didn’t feel Moderaterna had. There it felt like everybody had their opinions and point of views but weren’t willing to share it… just quietly (not counting the hardcore folk that are highly interested and greatly involved) compare it within themselves to the debate the meeting was about. Thumbs up for that.

Now I just need to grow a pair (there’s a lot of that going for me lately) and ball up a bit.

Kisses to all.

YES! June 27, 2009

…After getting so annoyed at the politicians here in Sweden earlier today, I’m glad to read something actually worth reading. Again a quick translation: One of our politicians wants our criminal youths to wear fetters instead of sending them off to juvenile homes that let them meet other criminal youths. One criticism this idea got though, was that a fetters are an alternative to jail and it is not ok to send kids to jail.

Alright. So kids shouldn’t be allowed to go to jail… but how are juvenile homes better? How on earth is letting kids go to school, be a part of society (albeight in restricted form), and be around family harsher than sending them to juvenile homes to hang out with other criminals? I wonder if the criticizer was just saying no without considering the alternative? Anyway, I don’t get it, so please someone explain. But until then it’s nice to read an article that wasn’t completely bias or about some ones stupidity.

Yay, for journalists who actually write interesting articles sometimes!

Cheers.

Legalising “drugs” June 27, 2009

I just read an article on hd again that made me want to have a discussion with the writer. For the non-swedish readers, it’s basically a politician worried that denmark has “given up” in the question of canabis use and therefor legalising it.

Ok, first of all, he never brings up why it’s a social problem, and thus why we should worry. I mean, we’ve all learnt that cannabis drugs and that drugs are bad. But why?? Alcohol is worse for us than canabis and yet alcohol is legal. Some scientists even compare the addictiveness of canabis to coffee. I myself used to be a regular user and decided after a few years of usage that I was over-using it and quit.

Ok, your argument here could be, “well if it isn’t dangerous, why’d you quit?”. I’m sorry to say that that argument just doesn’t cut it. I decided to quit tv because I’d started “using” it too often, shall we make tv’s illegal? (tv is btw harder to quit than canabis) How about coffee which is something I try to stay away from because I don’t like the effect it has on me. Or the classic one: alcohol? …The addictiveness of which is by the way compared to cocaine.

Just like with alcohol it’s something most people grow out of as lifes responsibilties catches up with us and the ones who don’t grow out of it, wouldn’t have been effected by a little law none the less. Most people, believe it or not, actually have a sense of responsibility, and as “drugs” like canabis aren’t physically addictive the way so many drugs like even alcohol are, I just don’t see the point.

I’m not sure myself where I stand in te debate of legalising canabis but articles like this make me so tired. Tired of arguments based on ignorance. And tired of the idea that society has to  be protected from itself. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Society is like a kid. The harder you hold on to it, the more it’s going to rebel, and the more incapable the kid is going to be in taking care of itself. After all, why should it take any responsibility when it’s got its authorities to rely on to take over its responsibilities?

Cheers

My High Horse June 19, 2009

An article in the newspaper (HD) a couple of days ago gave me proof of why 1) I left the ideologies of social democratic party behind me and 2) why I’m so glad that we have the party(ies) in power that we do. What the article was about? A couple complaining about how unfair the welfare system is now days because they weren’t compensated for everything that was in their robbed storage room. One example of the unfairness was that they weren’t compensated for their winter boots, because winter boots were apparently considered a luxury. Aw. Poor baby.

Ok, I’ll try not to be patronising because yes, it must be a horrible thing to have all your things in the storage room stolen from you and winter boots are good to have, but it’s not like Helsingborg is known for their hardcore winters, and I’ve survived many a winters without winter boots, even further up north. My conclusion after reading the article? Yes, winter boots are a luxury… and no, I don’t feel sorry for you. 

I’m so tired of a government that’s enabled people to complain because things aren’t’ just given to them. Before I get a bunch of angry comments about how people who need help, should get it. Yes, I agree, they should, but the way the system has looked for very long now, (which I know the party in power now is trying to change) is that if you knew how, the government could be used to live quite comfortably without having to work for a dime of it. My proof? An old acquaintance who admittedly worked hard to not have to work, and thus got more money than I ever did working my ass of for a low paying job. How on earth is that supposed to make people want to work?

Ok, I got a little of subject. I just mean to say that why oh why, should my tax money pay for a pair of (not that necessary) winter boots for a couple when I don’t even have the money to pay for a pair myself? Get a grip.

A Political Dilemma… June 3, 2009

Ideally, the ideology behind the party should be the deciding factor when people vote. Not the representative. A charming represesentativ doesn’t say anything about the politics it leads. Unfortunatly, it feels like more weight is put on who represents the party than the ideology the party represents. Especially in my case I think. Take the case of Göran Persson. I really liked him, I’d even go as far as say tat he’s the one Swedish politician that’s left the best impression on me. The politics he stands for though? Not my thing. The party that has until today had my support though, has the most infuriating representativ – Fredrik Reinfeldt. I’ve listened to a part of two of his speaches/discussion forums… both times I changed channel because I felt that instead of listening to a political discussion, I was listening to a man attempting to be humorous using elitist jokes at the expense of the other parties. In the process, the disussions felt dirty and lacking in integrity. Disgusting.

Thus, I think I’m going to change party. Besides, considering how the question of integration is the biggest discussion for me at the moment, the other swedish liberal party is a better fit.

Kisses to all

Worlds Worst Dictators May 29, 2009

It’s despicable what power trips some of these are on. I wonder what scale Parade uses to make the list though?

Kisses to all

Sensitive Subjects May 28, 2009

I was at another meeting a couple of days ago. This time the minister of migration was the speaker. The whole thing was a little badly planned and thus, I didn’t hear everything the man had to say, but the little bits and pieces I did get to hear made me glad to hear that yes, to the most part, I’ve chosen the right party. 

I say “to the most part” because the issue of migration to and from Sweden and within EU is such an important and interesting subject to me, and thus I have a lot opinions.

I’m proud that Sweden has such a strong welfare system, but one of the reasons I’m a liberalist is because I feel that the same socialist ideology that has done so much good for this country, has come to a point where it’s doing more damage. Swedes seem to have come to a point where the different parties agree more than they disagree because it’s become a sin to think differently. Thus, a subject like migration politics has become so sensitive that no one but the party hostile to immigrants dare to say that Swedens migration politics needs a drastic change.

I don’t like politics that has its base in agreeing with each other, because it stunts the possibility of growth and change. I also believe though, that politicians can’t do squat without the people being open to change. What politics is good for though, is mobilising the ideas that society have through law changes and thus integrating the ideas into its culture.

Because of this, I’m glad to be picking up little bits and pieces here and there that give proof of people’s changing opinions of what’s good for Sweden. I hope that the Swedish liberal party gets the chance to stay in power for atleast one more term so that they can continue to influence even more people into wanting a change so politics gets the chance to make some real changes.

Until that day comes though, I have so many thoughts about the Swedish migration politics that I wish I had someone to talk to about them. I wish I could write an e-mail to our minister of migration (Tobias Billström) and get answers from someone who actually works with it and has knowledge about it… even if it’s a little ideologically biased.

I have so many questions and I want so badly to have someone to talk to about it, it’s frustrating. Where would I start looking for information about the laws and ideologies and how they looked then and now?

Kisses to all.

Dambina Moyo May 14, 2009

I have for a a while been saying that the best way to help 3rd world countries is for the 1st world countries to stay out of it their business. I find it remarkable how high income cultures are so eager to think that they know what the low income cultures need. It is such a blatant form of ethnocentricity even if it is being done with the best intentions.

I was so happy to read a couple of days back about Dambisa Moyo. She’s mostly known as anti-Bono, as she finds it dispicable that an irish artist has taken the role of africs spokesperson, but I like her point of restricting African aid.

The only way for a person to grow and become strong is for that person to get the chance to stand on his or her own feet. That person might not in the end mature into what the parent hoped or wanted from the child, but that person has become his or her own person with strengths and weaknesses of his or her own. This had not been possible with somone constantly enabling the person,  speaking for the person, taking responsibilty for that person.

The same applies for countries. In the case of Bono, what would an irish man know about what Africa needs?

In the end, just like with people, the only country who can help that themselves, is themselves. Give them a chance, and the rest of the world might get surprised.

Sweet kisses to all.

Minister of Defence May 9, 2009

Yesterday I came home late, thinking that I can finally stay up late and wake up when I want since, you know, it was Friday. At around 2 am though, I realized to my dismay, that I had signed myself up for a political meeting today. Heh. Oh well, I’ll have a second chance to sleep in tomorrow morning.

None the less. The meeting was a kickoff in preparation for the upcoming Swedish EU election in June and the speaker was the minister of defence. Very interesting to be honest. I didn’t think it would be. The ministry of defence has for me been based on misconstrued one sided information, giving me the impression that the ministry consisting of military-loving, power-driven overweight men much like the ones we see in the movies.

Today I instead got to hear discussions of how the ministry of defence can more effectively be of help in big situations like the tsunami and other smaller situations like the bombing in Bombay. Interesting to hear is also how almost all help organisations begrudgingly need the help of some kind of military to get the chance to be able to actually help in the first place.

I realized in a naive kind of way that discussions like these are so very important! By being scared of discussing them just because the military is involved and we all like to think that peaceful people “like us” don’t need them, there’s a risk we’ll loose the aspect of how authoritarian organisations like the military can actually be of help.

In the end, I came to the conclusion that like it or not, the military is a part of the worlds society as a whole. It’s up to us to keep the discussions open so it doesn’t turn into the power-hungry men from the movies I mentioned earlier. Much like the subject of sex, the matter doesn’t take care of itself because parents and teachers don’t like to talk about it. By having zero tolerance for a subject that’s also a part of the worlds society in some way or another there is misconceptions of how it works, how to protect oneself, what it’s all about and how it can actually be something good. In many cases the lack of information can actually cause more harm – like pregnant teenagers and no help being able to be given because there are none of those resources to be given.

It seems that the more I learn, the more I interested I get. In fact, for the past week /few days I even started playing with the thought of actively working towards being a politician. After the meeting today though, I realized that although my interest for politics has in no way diminished and despite I’m still going to try and be part of as many meeting as I can… I’ve realized that becoming a politician is no longer a goal that I want to pursue.

Although I don’t consider myself stupid (it’s been a long and frustrating road to reach this conclusion) I find myself to be quite slow-witted. Give me time to think and write so I can formulate the words in my head and I’m ok, but a quick verbal par is not my thing. Not a hit within politics I think.

Also, even if I like the Swedish liberal party and will be voting for them in the next election and most probably will be voting for a representative from the same party for the EU election, I’m a strong believer of the need for conflict (within limits of course). The social democrats do have some valid points as well, as do many other party which have the right to be aired and taken seriously. Without it, the different layers of politics will all agree with each other and never be faced with other point of views. Or atleast, not often enough. There’s one spot I actually want the social democrats to have the majority seats of.

Ok, I got completely of the subject so I’ll just leave it there!

Sweet political kisses to all.